The Important of Being Patience

September 5, 2007

Around 12.05 pm, the new teacher, “M” came to my class. She wanted to ask about how to fill in the assesment/worksheets in Students Gained Score Record which acquired items analysis.
Before asking that, she said to me with unease expression ; wrinkled forehead J “ I just met with Mrs. J, she hailed me up and said, ‘Well, M, how is it going? Did you get close with her already?’ And her eyes pointing to your class. I don’t like her. She said so like you are a very difficult person.”
“What the word,”get close” to her already means? Did she mean it to me?” I asked.
“I don’t know. Might be.” Replied her awkward.
“Well, you may evaluated a person from the way he/she behaved, M.I can’t give any further comment.” I said with flat voice.
“Yeah, I know it.” She said.

Hmpfrh…I was a little bit upset when I heard it, but Praise to the Lord that I now can control my tempered.
Astaghfirullah ya Allah, I don’t have any idea why that person hate me that much. I feel I never have any problem with her at all. Why she always trying to hurt me? She had had humiliated me in front of so many people, even now she said lie bad things about me to the new hire?

One of the basic quality of a mankind (especially me), is can not accept other’s judgment, moreover, if that is not true.

Ya Allah, please protect me from the envy and from the evil of my tongue and hands. I shouldn’t reply back that person. It doesn’t bring any benefit. I even need to pity for her, who doesn’t has a happy life because she used to make other people unhappy for her to have an unhappy friend.

I mustn’t be like her, so I shouldn’t let her satisfy see me upset and unhappy because I don’t want to be include in unhappy people.
I don’t know whether next year, next month or even today I will stay alive. I might die suddenly. And I want to spend my life with useful things. Maintain hatred is unuseful. I want to be happy for the rest of my life.

Dear God, You had promised us, that mankind who maintain patience will get an exulant news, on the Holy Qoran, QS. 8 (Al Anfaal) : 66

“For the present, Allah hath lightened your (task), for He knoweth that there is a weak spot in you: But (even so), if there are a hundred of you, patient and persevering, they will vanquish two hundred, and if a thousand, they will vanquish two thousand, with the leave of Allah. for Allah is with those who patiently persevere.”

I let her say bad things about me, she helped me planting Allah gift fields for me after Dooms day.May God bless her.

I wish I’m on the right track in upgrading myself and preparing for my death. Allah, You are enough for me. I wish in this becoming Ramadhan I’ll be the real human being. Amin.